Why?
Why Now?
Why not later?
It's too early, too soon.
The light dims, then flares,
One moment flaring brightly, vibrant, strong,
The next subdued, cool, quiet.
For a moment there's years of life; remembered, to be lived,
The next; 10 minutes, looping, repeated.
The energy returns - sparks fly, struck from each other,
Then the frustration, the tears; the fear.
But all too soon it fades,
Leaving only the looping conversations.
And again I ask,
Why?
Why now?
Why Now?
Why not later?
It's too early, too soon.
The light dims, then flares,
One moment flaring brightly, vibrant, strong,
The next subdued, cool, quiet.
For a moment there's years of life; remembered, to be lived,
The next; 10 minutes, looping, repeated.
The energy returns - sparks fly, struck from each other,
Then the frustration, the tears; the fear.
But all too soon it fades,
Leaving only the looping conversations.
And again I ask,
Why?
Why now?
For some reason, as I read and re-read what you wrote, it reminded me of the challenges, frustrations, and (at times) bright spots of the journey my family is on with my dad who has Alzheimer's Disease.
ReplyDeleteVery well written...it certainly brought images to my mind immediately and emotions that we all have felt when we see the effect of A.D. on my dad.
Thank you for sharing your gift of writing! (Found you through AEDM.)
Did you write this last night?
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I don't usually comment on poetry as it is so personal to the author.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful poetry requires no further words anyway:)
I shall just say, I love the pattern.
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Gwen, it was written on the spur of the moment this morning.
ReplyDeleteAnn, it's cancer rather than AD, but having a similar effect :(
There is never an answer. Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteMichelle
Powerful, beautiful touching images. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, poignant, touching:)
ReplyDeleteLovely.
ReplyDeleteI so admire how you can express yourself so sincerely and beautifully through words, I've not come across anyone in blogland yet that compares to these posts :) thanks for sharing x
ReplyDeleteLove your writing.
ReplyDeleteSome questions stand on their own, like beacons in the night, and will never have answers. Anyone dealing with cancer knows this...
Wishing you a peaceful heart.
xox
A very raw and emotional poem, Nigel.
ReplyDeleteCancer is such a scary thing and we had our own dealings with it through my brother recently. His was a good outcome and I pray that whoever is living with it (in your life experience) finds the courage and strength they need to cope. Sadly, some questions are never answered in this lifetime.
Sending prayers,
Serena xo
Very poignant
ReplyDeletemy whole heart to you.
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